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[Aug. 14th, 2006|11:41 am] |
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& it seems as if now the tables have turned once again. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|07:49 am] |
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Here begins the story of how i woke up in a car this morning at 5 am in a town i dont know & people i didnt know waking me up & the area being completly covered with snow.
so i get out of work, go to nutley get wasted off my ass, get into a car with an extremely drunk etc. boy named joe hit about everything on the road go to a gas station and get cigs drop my vitamin water all over some mans feet then run. Go back to Carlys & realize joe broke his mirrors off hmmm. so he calls his mom and his mom tells him that she is going to call the cops. The party fled, and me aj mike mellisa matt & aubrey go to the queen. I lose all my cigs & other things. Which sucks alot because everytime i go to nutley i get extremly fucked up and give everybody everything. Then go back to Carlys & WAKE UP IN A CAR.
enjoy the snow. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
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grand ass fucking weekend.
. thursday went to nutley to visit the boys, ended up having the greatest night in a long time everyone was there who means the world to me.
. friday went to the luncheonette with aj mike & matt, then black friday shopping which was insane, worked then went with jill emily joe and john to erin and saras party which i can hardly remeber but was even better then the night before, went to gna's where this hour long party was going on, beachballs & drunk people everywhere. Then went back to jills for a goodnights sleep.
. woke up to have a lovely morning wake & bake. worked some more then went to this girls party in haskell with john and kev. saw some kids i havent seen in awhile got extremely belligerent. then off to this girls house in franklin lakes.
. sunday just chilled around with matt aubrey & mellisa, went to the queen, then monday came & now i wait till friday.
goodnighttttt. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|10:54 pm] |
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November is always the month were everything begins on the wrong foot then steps into something so amazing i can hardly belive that all of its true. Since Wensday i have been having the greatest luck.
Wensday: Coheed & Cambria & The blood brothers concert. greatest day of my life
Thursday: Moved my room to the upsairs = new party place.
Friday: Got my first car a beautiful Volkswagon Jetta.
Things are looking good & finally i want to brag. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2005|10:14 pm] |
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October is with me. I get everything but nothing. Girls are Dumb. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2005|04:59 pm] |
really good week this was i love cuddling boys make me happy.
geehhe |
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[Sep. 4th, 2005|11:46 am] |
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last weekend of summer & boy do i love all of the memories.
made new friends and gained old friends back that i love so dearly.
parttttyyyyyyyyy weekend.. pics from thee summer coming soon/; |
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[Aug. 13th, 2005|11:11 am] |
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i love when i can distinguish twofaced people. |
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[Aug. 12th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
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so this is the last year of shitty butler highschool and this is the year i grow out of my childish ways and realize who my true friends are. threw out the year i have mad many close and not so close friends.
but tonight made me realize that i can be by myself
i dont follow others like certain people do
tonight me and my close friends had a alittle trick played on us by some other so called close friends which made me realize "Who really is my friend."
boys are retarted when there in love with eachother they lie to everyone they know just to make themselves happy
and what i find hilarous is that i know every trick they play and they dont think i'll every find out.
goodnight everyone hope you all enjoy the rest of your summer |
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[Aug. 4th, 2005|11:03 am] |
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august is here but summer is not gone it just keeps getting better and better.
birthday parties come and go and every single one that has been going on is filled with excitment.
today will be a good day, shore time! then city then BRIS HOUSE! can't get any better then feeling all the memories of last summer.
need to see alot of people that i miss.
and jillian needs to come home now.
and only 3 months till i finally fucking drive.
<333 |
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[Jul. 16th, 2005|07:05 pm] |
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this summer probably could'nt get any better then it has been
: last night went to a party then a gremlin attached my oh you might know her shes 3 feet tall blonde has problems getting over things well yeh anyways she thinks she finally won so all of have to say is congratualtions and if it makes you feel better that you did nothing im glad i can get your annoying little ugly gremlin ass off of me.
THANK YOU!
Heathers party tonight ahhh should be funn.
ps. and at least im nice enough not too press charges for touching me since your 18 you fucking idiot, but the next time you come near me you'll fucking regret it. promise.
but innocent and sweet as candy to the core |
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[Jul. 10th, 2005|09:43 am] |
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Bev Riemer was her name:
& she loves every single moment this summer has been offering to her.
& she loves how everything is going exactlly as she had in mind.
& i love making absolutly no sense what so every.
wooohooooooo another day. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2005|03:39 pm] |
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Well here is where my life is right now:
Prom Weekend excellent.
Fucked up a really good relationship with my best friends.
Cut all of my exams.
Failed junior year.
GOT INTO A FUCKING CAR ACCIDENT.
My dad made we feel like i should have died.
No ciggs left.
I am in a great deal of pain.
& that kicks off my summer.
YESSSS! |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|01:51 am] |
So i can feel summer even closer with all the wondefull things i have been doing... such as jumping off a water fall with aubrey, enjoying watching the sunrise while cuddling with him, driving around with windows down and music up, seeing alot more of my summer friends, falling in love, riding paddle boats on an early sunday morning, taking random jogs at 10 at night and of course tommorow offical kicks off summer because yes it is prom weekend and yes i probably will be arrested :)
sleep timme then tommorow either begins my heaven or hell
I <3333333333 my loves. |
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[May. 30th, 2005|04:20 am] |
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I might not tell any one about what goes threw my mind everyday but one day you will find out and then it will be to late. too late for anyone to change. too late for anyone to realize what there life really was. everyday i wake up really excitied and happy for what the day is going to be like then as the day goes by i realize that nothing is gonna make life better. not saying that i would take this life away from me by myself but just let nature take it's course and hopefully as i grow up i will find a purpose for living & if not then this life was not spent as well as god had in plan for me.
really good/bad weekend.
i miss alot of people.
i played with alot of old friends. that i truly love dearly.
learned alot about life.
asked myself alot of questions.
no answer.
but somehow i just have to look at myself and say things "Can't get any worse"
somebody please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that your deserting for better company...
i need you ... so much closer.
Why is it that I'm always the ugly one with a good heart & your always the pretty one with a poisioned heart? |
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[May. 23rd, 2005|08:54 am] |
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the rain needs to stop falling & i have to find a reason why i am here.
I just realized alot of people piss me off, i just want to find honest, reliable, intelligent people who understand what i am going threw. I also really need to consider finding a REAL therapist & i need to get out this lame fucking high school.
+++ In other news I "Beverly Ann Riemer" finally got my permit. Congrats. And something else i have had alot of time to think about is to find TRUE friends. I know the difference between the ones who are real and the ones that are fake and it does'nt mean i dislike the fake ones. I just know where i am in this part of life. And i also know im going crazy.
cyyyyaaaa. |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|07:50 am] |
+ so in other news school still sucks. the teachers here are always complaining about there lives and taking it out on the students. M.S. Ormay needs to stay out of her own bussiness. I hate how teachers favor certain students. and then people wonder why kids dont pass. it could'nt possible be just the kids fault. it's the teachers who give you zeros for stupid shit. it's the teachers who feel the need to yell at there students everyday over nothing. and it the teachers who just simple DONT KNOW HOW TO TEACH. if i could have change my years threw high school all i would have to say is either i went to a different school or i just sticked to catholic school, at least teachers care about you there. So all im saying if let me live my life you live yours and there won't be a fucking reason to scream all the time.
Summer so soon. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK BUUUUTTTLLLEERRR HIIIGHH SCHOOOLL
thank you so much highshool for not doing shit for me. |
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[May. 13th, 2005|08:51 am] |
things i need to do & quick.
+ go to the city
+ save my money
+ put sand on my toes
+ swim in the ocean
+ tan
+ GO SHOPPING
+ fall in love
+ be loved
+ hangout with em meg and jill.
+ NEED to see jill
+ buy a nice cam
+ Start parting again
+ barbeque (Yesterday's consitied of veggie burgers, real burgers, and junk food <3)
+ need to start working out
+ beer pong
+ meet new people
+ smoke another ciggarette
+ stop spending my paycheck on food <--- fatass
+ cut my hair so the color i put in it looks better
SUMMER IS GONNA BE OFF THE HOOK!!! |
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[May. 10th, 2005|09:04 am] |
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+ friday. me, mike, matthew, matty p, nicole, mellisa, & aubrey went to plastoids after school had fun times at the top. me and matt had to go threw a bunch of windows trying to get a door open so everybody could come in, matty p broke some windows and then we went home. I meet up with nicole then we got mike and timmy drove around for about three hours trying to find the show there, and they toled us it was sold out. so we went back to town, i met up with aj mike aubrey matt and mellisa, we went back to aubreys and had a grand sleepover.
+ saturday. woke up and it was crazy mike bit my arm thinking he was some type of animal so i slappled him then he punched me :). around 11 me mike aubrey & matt met up with tj and aj and we went to the field. we built a bamboo fort which is absolutly amazing. i ended up calling out of work & we spent all of saturday there. from 11 to 11. The details of which went onwill remain a secret unless you ask me. but ill just let you know it was the best experience of my life. then we went to aubreys again. and i woke up it was mothers day.
Monday - I ACTUALLY STAYED HOME FOR ONCE! and it made me happy cause i finally cleaned my room :P |
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[May. 5th, 2005|09:06 am] |
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to escape the reality,
i travel away from people,
always arguing, making cries out to the world for help.
no one will help you if you cannot help yourself dear.
i find comfort in these abandoned places.
the places that i've come to love the most :)
+ last night went out after work with nicole then met up with brian maggie paulie steve mark & kev. went to the skyline where it was freezing. brian ended up getting taken away by the cops to the and me maggie and kev hid for about an hour behind rocks then walked down a creepy road that i said looked like sleepy hollow. at the end ofthe road the street sign said "Sleepy HOllow Court" haha
peaaaaccccceeeee |
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