I'vE GoT YoU...

where to now.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 18:39:51 GMT

& it seems as if now the tables have turned once again.

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 15:56:18 GMT

Here begins the story of how i woke up in a car this morning at 5 am in a town i dont know & people i didnt know waking me up & the area being completly covered with snow.

so i get out of work, go to nutley get wasted off my ass, get into a car with an extremely drunk etc. boy named joe hit about everything on the road go to a gas station and get cigs drop my vitamin water all over some mans feet then run. Go back to Carlys & realize joe broke his mirrors off hmmm. so he calls his mom and his mom tells him that she is going to call the cops. The party fled, and me aj mike mellisa matt & aubrey go to the queen. I lose all my cigs & other things. Which sucks alot because everytime i go to nutley i get extremly fucked up and give everybody everything. Then go back to Carlys & WAKE UP IN A CAR.

enjoy the snow.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 05:27:56 GMT

grand ass fucking weekend.
. thursday went to nutley to visit the boys, ended up having the greatest night in a long time everyone was there who means the world to me.
. friday went to the luncheonette with aj mike & matt, then black friday shopping which was insane, worked then went with jill emily joe and john to erin and saras party which i can hardly remeber but was even better then the night before, went to gna's where this hour long party was going on, beachballs & drunk people everywhere. Then went back to jills for a goodnights sleep.
. woke up to have a lovely morning wake & bake. worked some more then went to this girls party in haskell with john and kev. saw some kids i havent seen in awhile got extremely belligerent. then off to this girls house in franklin lakes.
. sunday just chilled around with matt aubrey & mellisa, went to the queen, then monday came & now i wait till friday.

goodnighttttt.

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 06:58:11 GMT

November is always the month were everything begins on the wrong foot then steps into something so amazing i can hardly belive that all of its true. Since Wensday i have been having the greatest luck.

Wensday: Coheed & Cambria & The blood brothers concert. greatest day of my life
Thursday: Moved my room to the upsairs = new party place.
Friday: Got my first car a beautiful Volkswagon Jetta.
Things are looking good & finally i want to brag.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:20:28 GMT

October is with me. I get everything but nothing. Girls are Dumb.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 20:56:13 GMT

really good week this was i love cuddling boys make me happy.
geehhe

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 03:48:29 GMT

last weekend of summer & boy do i love all of the memories.
made new friends and gained old friends back that i love so dearly.

parttttyyyyyyyyy weekend.. pics from thee summer coming soon/;

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 15:12:23 GMT

i love when i can distinguish twofaced people.

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 03:35:42 GMT

so this is the last year of shitty butler highschool and this is the year i grow out of my childish ways and realize who my true friends are. threw out the year i have mad many close and not so close friends.

but tonight made me realize that i can be by myself
i dont follow others like certain people do

tonight me and my close friends had a alittle trick played on us by some other so called close friends which made me realize "Who really is my friend."

boys are retarted when there in love with eachother they lie to everyone they know just to make themselves happy

and what i find hilarous is that i know every trick they play and they dont think i'll every find out.

goodnight everyone hope you all enjoy the rest of your summer

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 15:06:54 GMT

august is here but summer is not gone it just keeps getting better and better.

birthday parties come and go and every single one that has been going on is filled with excitment.
today will be a good day, shore time! then city then BRIS HOUSE! can't get any better then feeling all the memories of last summer.

need to see alot of people that i miss.
and jillian needs to come home now.

and only 3 months till i finally fucking drive.

<333

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 23:04:17 GMT

this summer probably could'nt get any better then it has been

: last night went to a party then a gremlin attached my oh you might know her shes 3 feet tall blonde has problems getting over things well yeh anyways she thinks she finally won so all of have to say is congratualtions and if it makes you feel better that you did nothing im glad i can get your annoying little ugly gremlin ass off of me.

THANK YOU!

Heathers party tonight ahhh should be funn.

ps. and at least im nice enough not too press charges for touching me since your 18 you fucking idiot, but the next time you come near me you'll fucking regret it. promise.

but innocent and sweet as candy to the core

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 13:45:10 GMT

Bev Riemer was her name:

& she loves every single moment this summer has been offering to her.
& she loves how everything is going exactlly as she had in mind.
& i love making absolutly no sense what so every.

wooohooooooo another day.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 19:42:48 GMT

Well here is where my life is right now:

Prom Weekend excellent.
Fucked up a really good relationship with my best friends.
Cut all of my exams.
Failed junior year.
GOT INTO A FUCKING CAR ACCIDENT.

My dad made we feel like i should have died.
No ciggs left.
I am in a great deal of pain.
& that kicks off my summer.

YESSSS!

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 05:56:02 GMT

So i can feel summer even closer with all the wondefull things i have been doing... such as jumping off a water fall with aubrey, enjoying watching the sunrise while cuddling with him, driving around with windows down and music up, seeing alot more of my summer friends, falling in love, riding paddle boats on an early sunday morning, taking random jogs at 10 at night and of course tommorow offical kicks off summer because yes it is prom weekend and yes i probably will be arrested :)

sleep timme then tommorow either begins my heaven or hell

I <3333333333 my loves.

Mon, 30 May 2005 08:35:53 GMT

I might not tell any one about what goes threw my mind everyday but one day you will find out and then it will be to late. too late for anyone to change. too late for anyone to realize what there life really was. everyday i wake up really excitied and happy for what the day is going to be like then as the day goes by i realize that nothing is gonna make life better. not saying that i would take this life away from me by myself but just let nature take it's course and hopefully as i grow up i will find a purpose for living & if not then this life was not spent as well as god had in plan for me.

really good/bad weekend.
i miss alot of people.
i played with alot of old friends. that i truly love dearly.
learned alot about life.
asked myself alot of questions.
no answer.
but somehow i just have to look at myself and say things "Can't get any worse"

somebody please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that your deserting for better company...

i need you ... so much closer.

Why is it that I'm always the ugly one with a good heart & your always the pretty one with a poisioned heart?

Wed, 18 May 2005 13:58:54 GMT

the rain needs to stop falling & i have to find a reason why i am here.

I just realized alot of people piss me off, i just want to find honest, reliable, intelligent people who understand what i am going threw. I also really need to consider finding a REAL therapist & i need to get out this lame fucking high school.

+++ In other news I "Beverly Ann Riemer" finally got my permit. Congrats. And something else i have had alot of time to think about is to find TRUE friends. I know the difference between the ones who are real and the ones that are fake and it does'nt mean i dislike the fake ones. I just know where i am in this part of life. And i also know im going crazy.

cyyyyaaaa.

bitchass.

Wed, 18 May 2005 12:54:50 GMT

+ so in other news school still sucks. the teachers here are always complaining about there lives and taking it out on the students. M.S. Ormay needs to stay out of her own bussiness. I hate how teachers favor certain students. and then people wonder why kids dont pass. it could'nt possible be just the kids fault. it's the teachers who give you zeros for stupid shit. it's the teachers who feel the need to yell at there students everyday over nothing. and it the teachers who just simple DONT KNOW HOW TO TEACH. if i could have change my years threw high school all i would have to say is either i went to a different school or i just sticked to catholic school, at least teachers care about you there. So all im saying if let me live my life you live yours and there won't be a fucking reason to scream all the time.

Summer so soon. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK BUUUUTTTLLLEERRR HIIIGHH SCHOOOLL

thank you so much highshool for not doing shit for me.

Fri, 13 May 2005 14:02:17 GMT

things i need to do & quick.
+ go to the city
+ save my money
+ put sand on my toes
+ swim in the ocean
+ tan
+ GO SHOPPING
+ fall in love
+ be loved
+ hangout with em meg and jill.
+ NEED to see jill
+ buy a nice cam
+ Start parting again
+ barbeque (Yesterday's consitied of veggie burgers, real burgers, and junk food <3)
+ need to start working out
+ beer pong
+ meet new people
+ smoke another ciggarette
+ stop spending my paycheck on food <--- fatass
+ cut my hair so the color i put in it looks better

SUMMER IS GONNA BE OFF THE HOOK!!!

Tue, 10 May 2005 14:20:31 GMT

+ friday. me, mike, matthew, matty p, nicole, mellisa, & aubrey went to plastoids after school had fun times at the top. me and matt had to go threw a bunch of windows trying to get a door open so everybody could come in, matty p broke some windows and then we went home. I meet up with nicole then we got mike and timmy drove around for about three hours trying to find the show there, and they toled us it was sold out. so we went back to town, i met up with aj mike aubrey matt and mellisa, we went back to aubreys and had a grand sleepover.

+ saturday. woke up and it was crazy mike bit my arm thinking he was some type of animal so i slappled him then he punched me :). around 11 me mike aubrey & matt met up with tj and aj and we went to the field. we built a bamboo fort which is absolutly amazing. i ended up calling out of work & we spent all of saturday there. from 11 to 11. The details of which went onwill remain a secret unless you ask me. but ill just let you know it was the best experience of my life. then we went to aubreys again. and i woke up it was mothers day.

Monday - I ACTUALLY STAYED HOME FOR ONCE! and it made me happy cause i finally cleaned my room :P

Thu, 05 May 2005 14:22:34 GMT

to escape the reality,
i travel away from people,
always arguing, making cries out to the world for help.
no one will help you if you cannot help yourself dear.

i find comfort in these abandoned places.
the places that i've come to love the most :)

+ last night went out after work with nicole then met up with brian maggie paulie steve mark & kev. went to the skyline where it was freezing. brian ended up getting taken away by the cops to the and me maggie and kev hid for about an hour behind rocks then walked down a creepy road that i said looked like sleepy hollow. at the end ofthe road the street sign said "Sleepy HOllow Court" haha

peaaaaccccceeeee

on the plus side....

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 14:22:12 GMT

+ went to two amazing campfires this week
+ paul black makes me happy :)
+ didnt see tj for a whole week
+ went to school today and realized i still have a whole in the back by my ass since a month ago. woops.
+ me and aj bought a cactus at the home depot yesterday
+ thunderstorms with my friends is wondefull
+ i like playing with vaccums, cleaning out cars in the rain
+ and i spend too much time at the skyline diner
+ plus side all my friends are there
+ i let aj cut my hair
+ my hair came out pretty good
+ mary rose is another me :)
+ i want the left side of my lip pierced really bad
+ i want to quit my dumbass job
+ oh and i hate/love my father
+ i went on a dinner date with mike and his family
+ i love his grandma ... who knows everybody
+ i love going to the field and lake everyday
+ && pictures are in.

good day.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 20:37:43 GMT

dont even try messing with us bitches.
have a nice day.

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 14:22:05 GMT

+ saturday: i got a haircut by a child named ajwho was not in the right state of mind. my hair is all even except for the back which looks horrific.

+ sunday: worked sucked. extremly busy. then mike came and saved me we went back to his place and ate his moms really good noodles and cabbage. <--- i loved it didnt think i would at all. :) then pickedup aj and matt. went to the gardens, meet a new friend from far away but who know lives in ringwood and toled us to stop by anytime. Chilled with Nicole in front of 711 for a bit. Then traveled to the diner for about 20 minutes...mike then dropped me off at the 711 once more, where i meet up with brian paul mark and steve. Had some fun then the night turned comepletly random. So theyhad this crazy idea to walk onthe railroad tracks then up a mountain, to the fucking top of federal hill, overlooking the quarry. The one that you might pass on the highway,the one who has a big light up pickup truck with presents in the back. Yeh so we were at the fucking top at 11 at night picth black. Went into the iron door, turned on the flash light, looked around and saw a milion crickets. eww. traveled back down the mountain, brain catched me a million times so i would'nt fall. then went back by the railroads tracks and saw fucking mark petraca! after all it is pomptons spring break so i can tell why they were back there. went threw tunnels. then as we were walking back the car a fight broke lose in front of us.

randommmmmm.

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 14:02:57 GMT

Lights out and my seat back as far as it will go casting shadows like statues I'm right outside your window theres no such thing as second chances theres no such thing don't bother to explain your so beautiful did you hear a word I said your so beautiful I guess this is what I get We trust and believe so easily in words they speak we seek security in one another but theres no way to cover this and these tragic nights and afternoons wreak disaster and I can still feel you as if you were in the room where did our story end where did it start I buried you along with my heart Entertain me and tell me "it didn't mean anything" its vengous worth my tolerance and I could be careless but I promise you'll feel everything I know.Did you hear a word i said? I know. I guess this is what I get.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 16:32:51 GMT

Two people get to know each other.

Hands shaking, sweating body, butterflies on stomach.
They pretty much know there is something speacial about each other.
But what is it? And what if it doesnt work out?
What if the butterfly feelings disapear and give place to tears. what if?

Two scared people get away from each other.

-we are hypocrites. and yes, that does include you-